A fear deep inside

When you are on the verge of finally realizing your vision, what is your instinctive reaction? Do you jump into it, heart, soul and some more; or do you hesitate and take a step back, because you are terrified of messing it all up? Does this trepidation dictate your actions? Does that fear end up becoming more encompassing than the vision that led you to this point in the first place? Which part of you wins in the end? Does the victory of that part of you spell doom for your entire being?

Or is it that it isn’t failure that you are really afraid of? Rather, you are afraid of discovering what you were capable of all along. Of having to face the reality of how you underplayed your own gifts and deprived your soul of the joy that comes from having explored them to the fullest. Perhaps, you were afraid of hearing accusing voices inside, admonishing you for having buried your unique gifts under the weight of irrational fears and societal expectations. Perhaps, you secretly think that if you don’t take that daring leap of faith, you will never have to discover what miracles it can do, and hence, won’t have to live with the regret of not having taken that leap sooner.

Perhaps you heard the adage “Ignorance is bliss” and took it to heart. Perhaps they should have added that the awareness and acceptance of one’s unique gifts is an even greater bliss.